I am

I Am

I am…

the youngest of 5 kids, always looking up to my older sisters as if they are 3 extra moms

running around barefoot in the California heat, not caring about anything

visiting friends in Missouri until we finally move here too

my dad, who defends me whether or not I’m right, but then still makes sure I know what I did wrong and improve

nineteen chickens and my dog Juliet out in the backyard

my family, who taught me to put God first and family second, but still above everything else

I am…

laughing with Versaviya, Sabrina, and Alex about the smallest things until our insides ache

scary movies and cuddling with Anna and Christina

Viktor, who I’m going to marry one day because he was in my family photos and has no way out

Dutch Bros and juicy gossip on a cold Portland night

a bonfire with my closest friends, and spilled secrets

late night adventures that would later become great stories

staying friends with the same kids I met 13 years ago

“We didn’t know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun.”

I am…

curling up in bed with a book on a rainy day

random documentaries that looked interesting

writing at 4am until reality becomes a distant memory

long hot baths that make me ponder how the world even works

drinking coffee even though I know it’s bad for me, and eating the last cookie because I can't say no

burying myself in the Bible because there is always something new to learn

watching Game of Thrones with my brother and getting overly emotional about everything

constantly trying to make myself a better person because life is short and I don’t want to waste it being grumpy and crabby instead of happy